“Dangerous Obession”

It started out great…. they met in a public place. She didnt even have a drink on her blind date. Things were slowly getting serious and yet as she knew from dating sites not to have him over, not to share personal information but she just couldnt resist.

He began to come over unannounced, calling at all times of the day. She didnt even know that her car had a tracker underneath. Her friends started to demenish and she was now all alone because THEY  had already seen her heading there…. to the place where the dark hour rose.

He was now obssessed with who she was with, where she was and when she’d be back. A week later she even broke it off and he laughed in her face!! ” Haaaaa”, he screamed! She just walked away.

She got an order of protection filling out all the details she could, being specific on times and days. He was gone….

No sign of him for months…. until!!!!!!!! She heard a noise in closet… she went closer to hear what was inside..

She moved in closer…. closer…. and now … the noise stopped.

She turned around and ………….. OUT HE JUMPED ON TOP OF HER!!!!!!!!!! she “fought for her life”.

But that fight of protection and hope…. ended … THAT NIGHT.


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“Imprisoned By Love”

Each movement watched by obssession. The cries for HELP and STOP never ceasing to reach her tired screams. She tries to break free from the power holding her bound but she is imprisoned by love.

He promises not to hurt her again, and again she said that she forgives him. The children are tainted by the quiet in their minds as they lock themselves in their rooms.

No one knows what happens behind closed doors once your “Imprisoned by Love”.

How can she break free? The divorce is final and he just wont leave!!!

How can she be who she is called to be? When each shadow is a reminder of the darkness that once took her breathe away.

Imprisoned by Love…. Does she admit to defeat or fight back for her life?

While he sleeps… Silence takes over her … she goes blank as she grabs the hidden gun that once was put to her head…

She stood over him.. Again; Silence creeps in…

“Imprisoned by Love”…. Love doesnt Hurt!!!

Silence…. in a dream

Personal Power

Having strength and personal power … takes recognition in itself to uphold. When your fighting through the storms of life and you’re all alone the darkness can swallow you whole. It can make you feel like you’re not worth the air around you…

But when the power and strength comes pouring in you become unstoppable, you become like the King or Lioness … let them hear you ROARRRRRR!!

That inner power gives you clarity, new vision in life and moving towards joy, and personal strength to where you create an energy that jolts you to new gifts in life.

Sometimes we’re hard on ourselves, take our value for granted, let others have power and strength over us….. STOP! And walk in your own victory!!!

Trust me you’ll shine like the brightest diamond.

Tap into your personal power… do you! Be you! Be true and create your own sunshine!

Suicide Prevention

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There is no single cause to suicide. It most often occurs when stressors exceed current coping abilities of someone suffering from a mental health condition.

Suicide Rates by Age

In 2015, the highest suicide rate (19.6) was among adults between 45 and 64 years of age. The second highest rate (19.4) occurred in those 85 years or older. Younger groups have had consistently lower suicide rates than middle-aged and older adults. In 2015, adolescents and young adults aged 15 to 24 had a suicide rate of 12.5.

Suicide Rates by Race/Ethnicity

In 2015, the highest U.S. suicide rate (15.1) was among Whites and the second highest rate (12.6) was among American Indians and Alaska Natives (Figure 5). Much lower and roughly similar rates were found among Asians and Pacific Islanders (6.4), and Blacks (5.6).

Note that the CDC records Hispanic origin separately from the primary racial or ethnic groups of White, Black, American Indian or Alaskan Native, and Asian or Pacific Islander, since individuals in all of these groups may also be Hispanic.

Suicide Methods

In 2015, firearms were the most common method of death by suicide, accounting for a little less than half (49.8%) of all suicide deaths. The next most common methods were suffocation (including hangings) at 26.8% and poisoning at 15.4%.

Suicide Attempts

No complete count is kept of suicide attempts in the U.S.; however, each year the CDC gathers data from hospitals on non-fatal injuries from self-harm.

494,169 people visited a hospital for injuries due to self-harm. This number suggests that approximately 12 people harm themselves for every reported death by suicide. However, because of the way these data are collected, we are not able to distinguish intentional suicide attempts from non-intentional self-harm behaviors.

Many suicide attempts, however, go unreported or untreated. Surveys suggest that at least one million people in the U.S. each year engage in intentionally inflicted self-harm.

Females attempt suicide twice as often as males. As with suicide deaths, rates of attempted suicide vary considerably among demographic groups. Males are 4 times more likely than females to die by suicide. The ratio of suicide attempts to suicide death in youth is estimated to be about 25:1, compared to about 4:1 in the elderly.


Speaking up for Children

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Children and adolescents have among the highest rates of conventional crime victimization and, in addition, suffer from some crimes – like sexual abuse and family abduction — specific to childhood. Despite enormous publicity about crime and youth, however, this high vulnerability is seldom mentioned. These facts and statistics about crimes against children are compiled from a variety of sources.

Children suffer rates of conventional crime victimization, like rape, robbery and assault, that are substantially higher than the general adult population. They also suffer a considerable burden of victimizations that are specific to being children – child maltreatment, neglect and emotional abuse. Unfortunately, crimes against children are considerably less likely to come to police attention than crimes against adults. Even so, the police see more children in the role of crime victim than in the role of crime offender.  It is thus ironic that crimes committed by children  — juvenile delinquency – receive considerably more official attention than crimes committed against children. This is reflected in courses in college curricula devoted entirely to Juvenile Delinquency or the Federal government’s Office of Juvenile Justice and Delinquency Prevention, which is concerned about juvenile victims, but only has delinquency in its title.

Each year, countless children around the world fall prey to sexual predators. These young victims are left with permanent psychological, physical, and emotional scars. When a recording of that sexual abuse is made or released onto the Internet, it lives on forever. It haunts the children depicted in it, who live daily with the knowledge that countless strangers use an image of their worst experiences for their own gratification.

Predators Face Severe Penalties

Several laws increase the probability that sexual predators who harm children will suffer severe consequences, including the Mann Act, the 1994 Child Sexual Abuse Prevention Act, the 2003 Protect Act and the 2006 Adam Walsh Child Protection and Safety Act. Federal law bars U.S. residents from engaging in sexual or pornographic activities anywhere in the world with a child under 18. ICE works with law enforcement agencies and advocacy groups around the globe to investigate crimes of this nature. Those convicted in the United States face significant penalties:

  • Up to 30 years in prison for possession, manufacture, distribution of child pornography
  • Up to 30 years in prison for traveling child sex offender, facilitator of sex with children, or a participant in these crimes
  • Up to a life sentence for sex trafficking children for prostitution

Never judge

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Recognizing the signs of bullying can be an instrumental part to reversing the trend between eating disorders and bullying.  Often, children and adolescents who are bullied will not speak up or ask for help for fear of rejection, humiliation, or punishment.  Parents, teachers, coaches, and other adults who interact regularly with children should be aware of the many warning signs that may indicate someone is affected by bullying.  According to StopBullying.Gov, The following are common signs that a child is being bullied [3]:

  • Unexplainable injuries
  • Changes in sleeping patterns or reoccurring nightmares
  • Loss of interest in school, declining grades,
  • Avoidance of social situations
  • Changes in eating patterns, such as binge eating or skipping meals.
  • Frequent complaints of physical ailments, such as headaches or stomach aches
  • Decreased self-esteem or feelings of helplessness
  • Personal property that is lost or destroyed, such as clothing, electronics, books, etc.

If you suspect that your child or someone close to you is being bullied, it is important to seek out help immediately and not ignore the issue.  People in authority, such as school officials or counselors, can play a helpful role in mediating and resolving conflict.  Being more than a bystander can prevent episodes of bullying from reoccurring or escalating into something more damaging, such as an eating disorder.

Scale trauma

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Scale trauma is real and we cannot afford to ignore its negative impact on eating disorder recovery.

There isn’t a doubt in my mind that one of the reasons I am Recovered today is because I wasn’t exposed to scale trauma during my recent recovery. I haven’t stepped on a scale in two and a half years. In fact, my therapist and I never used my physical appearance as a metric to track my progress (this was hard for me but important). The focus was on my thoughts and behaviors. I didn’t feel shame for having eating disorder thoughts and/or behaviors during recovery because I knew having them, confronting them, challenging them and diffusing them was part of recovery. She and I tracked my progress by how my thoughts, language and behavior evolved. Removing scale trauma had a positive impact on my recovery because it opened up space to heal.

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This isn’t a call to action to remove all scales from eating disorder recovery (although wouldn’t that be awesome!) I recognize the use of scales in eating disorder recovery is deeply ingrained and even well-intentioned. This is a call to action to start talking about scale trauma. To acknowledge and address the negative impact of scale trauma in eating disorder recovery and start talking about other, less traumatic, metrics.